Medium: Sculpture

Material: Plaster of paris, paper, wire, plastic tube, iron nails, clay.

Size:4ft X 1ft

"Dysuria" is a sculpture revolving around the concept of abjection. Rediscovering my body through these abject aspect of life. The narrative yields the theme of horror and disgust escorting me towards my "self" my body. Finding the self by rejecting what is not the self. The self is founded in loss and abjection.

It is cold. It is dark. It is wet. Me floating in my urine feeling to urinate after urination. Slowly sensing my sticky vagina. My ass blowing with hot air. I cannot feel my legs, my arms. I hear screams of devil begging for his life. Worsening it I gradually could see him wallowing in his own blood and vomit and his eyes popping out at me seeking help. Am I dead or am I hallucinating?

At the level of the physical body, our skin is the border that separates us from the outside world. Each being then engages in a constant process of ingesting into the body and secreting (or abjecting) from the body in order to live. When we ingest something into our body which is earlier a non self it becomes a part of the self. Not just ingesting food but desire for someone… his thoughts…. registering his voice… his face….his breath….his feel….everything making it a part of the self. Sometimes to find one self it is necessary to abject the self (the non self which was accepted as self ) in order to protect the self giving birth to new self.